Health

Breathing Was More Effort Than I Could Muster…

September 26, 2016, I awoke fighting the dyspepsia I'd gone to bed with. I figured I'd eaten too large a portion of enchiladas at my parent's house the evening of the 25th, and my mom said she'd used a different enchilada sauce than usual. September 25th had been an emotionally straining day. Something to do… Continue reading Breathing Was More Effort Than I Could Muster…

Abusive Relationship · Second Husband

Did The Truth “Set Me Free”?

Something didn’t seem quite right about the stories my new boyfriend, Dave, was telling me. Equipped with the paycheck I found in the computer case, I proceeded to reach out to Mt. Sinai of Queen’s HR Department to find out where exactly department 19 employees were assigned. “That’s the emergency department”, the woman stated. No… Continue reading Did The Truth “Set Me Free”?

Depression

Depression, Random Ramblings of a Depressed Mind

I'm depressed. Right now. 11:30pm January 3, 2019. For whatever reason, for NO reason, I'm depressed. My thoughts are a bit erratic when I'm feeling down, as I am currently.On 12/24, a local reporter/weekend anchor messaged me and asked if I'd like to discuss situational depression for a Christmas Eve news story.  I obliged and… Continue reading Depression, Random Ramblings of a Depressed Mind

Abusive Relationship · Second Husband

He took pieces so small I didn’t realize they were being taken, until I was no longer myself.

Posturing is an abusive narcissist's go-to... June 18, 2016 post Regarding Dave (2nd husband~abuser) I appreciate all of my friends and family that tolerated him until I was able to get him out safely. He moved out at the end of April and signed the deed of my house back to me. We kept this… Continue reading He took pieces so small I didn’t realize they were being taken, until I was no longer myself.

USAF, MST and PTSD

My Most Open #MeToo Moment, to date…

I'm going to tell my full story, in time. Parts of my story are still being discovered through psychology at the VA. Here's my first true acknowledgement post. MST ~> PTSD.. "I had Pandora's Box get opened in March of 2018 and it's been a hell year. It had been sealed for 25yrs. I'm now… Continue reading My Most Open #MeToo Moment, to date…